Some of you have asked me that. It is hard to describe really. Often it seems like my own imperfections make it difficult. Other times it seems difficult as for some I am too much of a woman and/or too young to lead teams and teach. But the most difficult..
To be honest, it feels quite lonely to be the only one working in this ministry full-time. Since the beginning I have asked God to give this vision to others, so there would be a full-time team for MEW brainstorming together, planning and leading as a team.
His plans have been different. He has given a similar vision to several people, but at least now, He has not called any other to do it full-time. I am fortunate that there are more people whose heart is to inspire the worship ministry in Estonia (grateful that some of them are my closest circle here). If I could, then I would ask extra time to their weeks, so they could join dedicating more time to what their heart desires — worshipping God and inviting others to do the same. There is power in worship, it impacts our churches! The more people we have to work on this, the faster and wider the worship ministry would take it’s place and help to grow churches.
That is the reason why I have felt stuck in some areas — like building a database or a translating committee. It requires more people who are already not overbooked with other responsibilities. I have not given up even in such subjects, but I need some fresh ideas before things could get moving. I know there is a way! :)
There is always work to do, some people to encourage and personally develop. I have found a fresh time-off method these past months: I have started to play volleyball again. Great opportunity to meet people outside of church. Also, continuing taking vocal lessons and passing it on while teaching some singers vocal techniques for their ministry.
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